Fear crept within;

 

The mind fears what if the body loses all its social connections and becomes that weird lonely soul, from within, yet again. That soul, whose possessor never once knew what the world outside looked and felt like. The body of that soul never once could acknowledge that life is far more adventurous and blissful. 

There is a flash of reminiscence of how this cocoon coiled cosily inside itself was slowly and unexpectedly put out in the world slowly opening its wings. But what if they don't like the colour of the wings that come out? what if the pattern isn't attractive and merry enough? All thoughts are in the backseat and there's acceleration on the road ahead. No thoughts at the back of the mind. Going effortlessly with the flow, learning along the way, tumbling on the edges and on the curves but in spite and despite all those hurdles. The journey towards being a butterfly is still on.

Midway into the journey, there are thoughts that occasionally show presence and show their presence. They occur more frequently now. What if the pattern repeats? Everything and everyone is after all the same breed and almost resembles the past quite perfectly. However, this time, this body both mentally and emotionally is braver and more experienced, of course. But this heart. It still isn't strong enough. Won't take it now. It pleads every night to become stronger. Little does it knows, that only it can make itself stronger.

But have we reached that point yet? No. Then why even think of it when it isn't even going to happen near future? As if the present isn't horrifying and stressful enough. 

Let's focus on the present first. Let's focus on the present first.