Surety?

 I saw him today only for an hour and everything again was off its place. Please, someone, tell him this is torment to me. 

What goes on within his heart? Oh is there any cure for this desperation to know about his thoughts and feelings and emotions? I so wish there is or I swear I am going crazy over this human whom I am not even sparing a glance at. 

What was the reason behind me not looking his way?

I am scared. I am afraid. I am in immense doubt. I overthink and a zillion other reasons, but the biggest of them all is that somewhere I am not sure.