What? what is wrong with him? what is wrong with us? why is this painstakingly melancholic? Time is fleeting, I hope he makes his move before it's too late. I lack courage, he doesn't. Things I wish to hear him say, I have been hearing from every other mouth. God, make him say, pls.

The day. Only if I knew. I would have tried to make it a bit special for him but oh. I felt but wasn't I powerless? I certainly was. Those eye contacts meant a thing. Only if I knew. Those minimal eye contacts today. May they light up his day if he has a spark burning in himself for me. Only he can summon the courage for both of us. May he someday. May he.