The aura

 

This guy, Vern. What an item, oh. Has the play of eyes begun again? yes. It had already begun a long time ago. It is now that I noticed. How can a person possibly appear every time? You just had a thought and oh, that is him standing right there in front of you. 

I haven't told you this but he terrifies me sometimes. It was not so until I heard things about him and all I could think of now is how can a person possibly be that way. They say he is on the wrong end but he claims and so I feel, he is being wronged. Oh but dear, what do I do of this feeble and fragile heart of mine? It will never be able to comprehend either of the situations. 

Am I scared of him? yes. His aura is powerful and authoritative, exactly how I think a man should be. But are they so because of wrong reasons? Probably.

pretentious?

 

Past is coming back and the present is seeking help because oh it's horrifying. had this past intervention nowadays been a few months back, things would have been completely different. Now, it seldom bothers me though I still think that this is weird to have elements of him around but okay I believe it is fine for I actually don't feel anything as such. Things are quite normal and actually very interesting. I don't even think aimlessly all day about that human anymore. 

Vern. This man is a whole something new. Something unimaginable. Things haven't been quite a constraint with Vern as they were before this. He has been around, his energy has been around and his vibes have been around for a long time now. I have spoken to him, and I have heard his tone of talk. The way his voice sounds up close, the pauses he takes while in conversations, and his body language. Almost everything possible I believe. But then that is what he says and what I interpret, the world around us however has a different approach and even different perspective. I will agree with the world for some of its opinions but then some claims seem unacceptable. I believed them initially but then after that conversation, they seem absolutely ridiculous to me. Maybe a small portion of it all may be true but oh not all, for sure. Oh, but again, what if Vern is pretentious? What if that is exactly what he is. 

The overlap.

 

It's been months since I have been over 'him'. I have lived with an empty mind all throughout this time. Earlier, whenever boredom struck, I could just imagine him and things got a lot better. Maybe bearable. It is recently (about 3 months ago) that things don't seem to get better even after thinking about him. That was the peak of my realisation and probably my acknowledgement to my dear poor heart that suffers from delusional phases that I am out of the waters of his charms. I am sincerely glad I am out of it and I will forever cherish those very childish memories and 'eye contacts.'

But within getting out of his phase and entering into the empty phase, there was someone or should I say, there is 'someone'. I believe I will call him 'Vern' because even though I am NOT in any 'romantic' delusion with this man oh but I am still in a delusion. Vern has been around in the earlier phase as well but it is now that things are getting intense. Vern is not a regular man, he is weird enough to make a soul wonder. Vern seriously astonishes me sometimes. 

That works for the introduction I believe.