Courage (virtual)

 And I took the first step. Can I expect him to take the next? I should.

My heart beat faster than anything and oh the ambiguity and doubt in his response. His response did suffice and I am happier. The day was happier than many this year. 

A response (virtually) that can make you this happy is indeed weird. But I was and am happy and the reason is him.

Also, I have fallen deeper now. Every time I take a step back, I leap ahead of the last time I have been. Oh, my poor heart needs to stay away from this. It is going to suffer badly. It is definitely going to suffer.

Why am I not seeing the separation ( almost permanent) coming up? But this mad heart wants to still think, talk and hear about him. I am again going feral, help. Oh dear god, help me.