Cowardice?

 

Wow, another day another step.

He was sweet as I thought he would be. But something is really wrong with me. I behave differently in front of him. Sometimes I get either too friendly or too rude, idk. I have some real problems. Probably unsolvable. Worst of them all, I KNOW what my issues are and I am still helpless in doing anything about it.

I don't know if I should be writing this (mainly because it seems all delusional to me) or not but he does notice me. He too gets conscious in front of me. we are both cowards, oh, what misery.